What Has happened?
What has happened to me!!! Im doing something that I don’t believe that I can finish because Im just not that kind of person! I only have a few minutes to describe it, but I will finish it up later. They question is why am I joining an organization that probably will beneficial some what in the end, but I cant do change who I am to do this. Im a person who is quite and to myself for the most part and they want to change me for the “best”. It probably is better if I was a little more loud and what not. I just like who I am and I know people like who I am now. So I shouldn’t have to change, but Im going to write more about this later.
Buying this documentary and going to enjoy every second of it!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD
I’m Not Me Anymore.
I have just come to the realization that I have drastically changed a lot about me. I know that I have changed for a while actually, but right now, this second actually, I’m realizing that I’m not sure I am the same person as before. There are many things that I used to question and ask and now they seem to not present themselves to me. I guess you can say I’m not thinking about them anymore, but I still want to wonder. I’m just not sure I guess right now. I’m not sure what I want to do or need to do anymore; which can be dangerous. I have been there before and that leads to some deep shit. So I guess its time to rethink some shit that has been going on and do it quickly because things are coming at me at a fast pace.
I’m not trying to blame people, but thinking about it, I believe that there were a few people who have changed me. I kinda wish that didn’t occur, but it did. I also need to fix some relationships with those people. Wow! this all just hit me while I’m typing this up now. Maybe its because I’m getting “better” that some of these things are not occurring, but those things made me who I am and I don’t want that to dissipate from my life. Sometime life just drops you on your ass or something on you like this and you have to reassess what is going on. I don’t know why it always occurs like this, but its interesting to think about.
Back on topic though, I’m not the same person that I was 6 months ago. I know that I’m not the same person and for some of those reasons I’m glad I’m not the same person. But there are still numerous reasons why that is also a bad thing. I miss many of those attributes that I had at that point in my life. I thought I knew how to define myself and I still have an idea, but I’m not sure about somethings anymore. I really need to rethink those things and I have some today without realizing it. It has basically been one of the main struggles since I have arrived at college, but its time to stop avoiding it and challenge it straight on. I need to stop suppressing it and attack it.
Life is always complicated and there is no way around it. For me, it was extremely complicated and then cleared up. Right now though, I can see it clouding up a little and I think I need to figure it out. I know I sound like I’m a mess, but who isn’t…..
No More Shit!!!!! Its really time to train! It will be tough, but thats what it is all about!
Why Do I Run…
“Because you’re wondering if your grandchildren will too. Because its raining. Because you can, and others can’t. Because its faster than walking. Because that shaky-leg-thing is all about nervous energy. Because you can’t fly. Because you can fly. Because your personal best is just that, yours. Because the pain of a blister is nothing compared to the pain of stopping. Because you like the resistance the wind gives you. Because you like the resistance you give the wind. Just Because.”
One of my new favorite rappers!!!!!!
Donald Glover (AKA: Childish Gambino)- Be Alone
“I wish I could say this is a story of how about how I got on the bus a boy and got off a man, more cynical, harden, and mature and shit. But thats not true, the truth is I got on the bus a boy and I never got off the bus. I still haven’t”
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